omens & augury

listening to the whispers

taxi drives through a flooded city

We’re Going to Need a Bigger Boat

What happens when the storm breaks before the spell does.

We boarded.
Turbulence grew —
typhoon season.
Nothing new.

When the screaming
started,
I knew to be scared.
I held back.
I felt embarrassed
to ask a stranger
for his hand.

What if we didn’t die
today?

When we landed,
we waited
for hours —
on someone else’s
runway.

Pressure in the cabin.
Raised, demanding voices.
The door opened
and closed.
The white guy left.
We remained.

Finally,
like refugees,
we disembarked —
200 km away.

Inside
people were frantic.
Staff mauled.
Like a drowning child
sinking their saviour.

Our bags,
dumped
onto a conveyor.

The end.

I didn’t speak
Chinese.
I was lost —
I watched,
on mute.

I never lost sight
of the man who’d sat
next to me.

“We’re catching a cab,”
he said.

Five perfect strangers —
only him
who understood.

Our final destination:
just me and him now.
Flooded, knee-deep.
Dark, foggy.
Silence, inside
and out.
Only the low hum
of the engine,
and the water
at our doors.

From the shadows —
of our haunted river road
cruise —
Neptune’s statue
emerged from the mist.
I blinked,
I laughed,
what the fuck-
was I dreaming now?

My hotel was underwater.
I had no chance
of getting there.

Reception wouldn’t send
a boat.

We drove on.
“That’s my apartment,”
he pointed to the sky.

“I would invite you,
but it’s inappropriate.”
I nodded silently.

I didn’t feel unsafe.

The taxi stopped.
Like an island
in the middle of
the sea.
The driver panicked,
unfamiliar with the city
and the terrain.
Persuading —
loudly,
like only a negotiator
knows how.
We continued.

A new hotel, located.
Safe, dry —
but not mine.

“Here is my number,
if you need anything.”

I was thankful,
deep gratitude.
I had a bath
to steady my soul.

The next morning,
I met
to negotiate
a few more cents
on plastic toys.

“I didn’t think you’d make it,”
she said.
She was hours late
for the meeting.
The floods still raged.

I was on time.

I was done.


Marginalia

This trip was the last negotiation trip I took in my corporate life. When I found out I was pregnant in the airport on the way home, I realised that anything could have happened to me that night and without a signal on my phone, no one would have known any different.

At the time, I was only focused on my itinerary, which was to essentially haggle for pennies over toys that only cost pennies in the first place. It was only upon reflection did I think ‘what the fuck is this all about’ and decided this wasn’t it anymore.